I had my first major breakdown at 14. I DID go to school for the most part, but I had to leave early on a pretty much daily basis because of either delusions or panic attacks. My sophomore year was the same. I was finally missing and leaving early so often that I was pulled from school and home schooled through a "home hospital" school program (I believe it was state offered). Can you talk to your mom and school counselor to see if something like that is available for you? Someone from the school came to my home and schooled me only twice per week and it was just up to me to read and do assignments. The work load and expectations were, however, geared towards someone who was not as able to function as other students. I ended up passing 10th grade (with good grades actually) only because of this. I went to a specialized school my junior and senior years. It is so hard to be so young and so debilitated by this illness. Please come here as often as you need for support and encouragement.