As some of you may have read in my other posts, I've been struggling for years with transference--beyond what's healthy. My T doesn't know anything about it. I know some of you said how can she not know, but I hide it very well, and mostly it's about my obsession with her outside of session and I can't stop.

I think I'm going to write an email tonight and get it out I want to tell her about my obsessive need to look her up online and check her facebook over and over again to see if the privacy setting gets messed up (she unknowingly had it public and changed it so I miss my fill from checking it

Here's my question. I want to admit to the internet searching and facebook stalking (and I've learned a lot about her from my years of obsessive searching), but I'm worried she'll ask me what I know and I CAN'T admit to some of the things I've learned (I even went so far to find her divorce papers on the county website so I know the date, etc. which she has never talked about--please don't just me, I can't handle it right now). I don't know how I'll answer that. Any advice?