I have hit a low... It is not my first time being this low hence the reason I realize it. I have conversion disorder and I have able to keep the nonepileptic seizures under control.

I have been depressed for the past month or so. But I really hit rock bottom two days ago. I had a car accident five days after an appendectomy last year and I am suffering from PTSD whenever I get into a car. Two days ago we were in town and heading home when it was dark.

I live in a small town so there are a kerjillion deer out at night. I knew that and I closed my eyes because I didn't want to keep anticipating the worst. (I was not driving by the way) A few minutes later my sister slams on the brakes and it was pure miracle that we didn't hit the deer.

It was literally right beside the car. It rubbed against the car as we drove past it. My brain could not handle the high emotions which led me into a nonepileptic seizure. Lasted about 20 minutes. I'm still extremely sore and have a migraine.

That incident has fed my depression and now I'm feeling stuck once again.