true. im surprised you remember that. but yea that was true. im just getting so little of actually being with someone. i could spend all day on here but nothing matches up with actually being with someone. its so incredibly lonely. im fighting with my mom now. my dad and sister are always busy. they work. my moms sick of seeing me and she only sees me once a week or less. my sister doesnt even near dallas. she lives near mexico in another texas town.

nobody gets how frustrating this is to be this isolated. pretty much against my will. i cant even drive right now i feel so bad. idk if its the meds or psychosis right now im so confused but im pretty sure its the meds.

my mind just feels so confused and i feel almost delirious-like.