Hi Everyone,

I am in desperate need of venting right now. I am sitting at my boring remedial part time office job right now in which i have very little human contact and am required to pretty much do data entry all day. My job alone is draining and I find it hard to motivate myself to actually work when I have no one around me to even notice whether I am working or not. It facilitates my mind to wander and focus on everything that I am anxious or depressed about at the moment.

I have started studying psychology and human services part time and am getting increasingly stressed about assignment deadlines which are looming and I feel like I am way behind and unprepared and that I will fail.

I have an alcoholic mother who calls me every day when shes been drinking and just talks and talks and rants about everything that sucks in her life until I abruptly end the phone call feeling completely drained, irritated, upset and guilty for ending the call. I don't trust her enough to talk to her about my feelings or struggles so its hard to have a positive relationship with her lately.

I suffer from Social Anxiety as well so its difficult for me to initiate catching up with friends or talking about my problems because usually I feel like they are only hanging out with me because they feel obligated and am too self-conscious about how they see me if I am upset and weak.

Usually I can cope OK day to day because I have a very supportive husband (he is the one person in the world I feel 100% comfortable around) and can talk to him about my feelings until I am calm and in a better perspective again. The problem being that he is out of town for work for the next couple of days so my one saving grace is kind of gone.

So to conclude, I feel anxious and depressed and stuck behind the bars of my own problems right now and am trying my very best not to drop everything and go home and hide under the covers for the rest of eternity. Any supportive words would be most helpful...