I wrote the email, and gave her a good idea of what is going on

I didn't get into specifics, but I feel completely vulnerable and naked after writing it. Now, I just need to drink a bit so I have the courage to send. And late. I want to send after she goes to bed because I don't want the anxiety of anticipating a response, I'll lose my mind and sanity. She's a night owl, so this will take awhile