oh my, Kimmydawn, your comment "a flat-out denial of MY existence of ME." struck home. Yes, that is how it makes me feel. I could never put words to it, seems like you just did. Him saying it never happened meant I never existed. So sad, because I did exist and I felt so much pain and sorrow. And it was never acknowledged or validated which made me question my own reality. interesting...

I am not even sure I know what I need, maybe it is just validation. I thought I had forgiven. Guess I haven't forgotten and it still shadows my life like a dark cloud, never knowing when the cloud will burst into violent thunder storms. Is obvious he will never admit or "validate" the pain he caused. I try ooo so hard to move forward, yet I still get drawn back to "those days". "tears"...

Thank you (((((((kimmydawn))))))
((((((((candybear)))))))))
(((((((selfy)))))))
(((((((wantstofly))))))))))

Thank you for understanding and hearing me..