Well last week was my fault for it not being a good week. Well, partially at least. I didn't express my hurt to her. I never seem to be able to express emotions in the moment unless you make me laugh or cry. And the problem is that my depression is atypical, so even when I am depressed, if I'm not crying you can't tell.

I just wish this back and forth would stop. We both know now that she can be supportive and caring. Now I need her to be consistent. I think she's a great T if she remains caring. I can see myself learning a lot from her. Even today she offered to go through the DBT workbook with me if I want her to. That's something ex-T refused to do.

Idk. I'm just desperate for stability. I've spent the last 6 months with emotions all over the place. I think I deserve a little break....even in my own therapy.