I used to be quite emotional and sensitive person when i was young. I began to have depression about 20 years ago and it was untreated until now. Actually right now i started wondering if have woken up somehow to be able to see this.

Alcohol must have been another driver for it, i'm pretty sure. I've been cutting down my drinking about a year now quite successfully. I might relapse sometimes, but it's nothing compared to many previous years. Aiming to be completely sober...

I just wish there's nothing gone permanently wrong with me...