The First Truth is that we are not all special, we are not all equal in all ways
Some people are smarter, faster, better looking, stronger, hell even luckier (although that is hard to make an objective stance on). And sometimes we can do everything right and still fail and someone else muddles through life, a total screw up and ends up successful
But there is no need or reason to heap more crap on yourself. You suffer from depression, like everyone else here. It is not a blessing, it is not a positive in any way, shape or form: It sucks
It is like our own brains have betrayed us. And that is such an intimate form of betrayal that is hard to get past. I personally wish I could angry enough to rage pull myself out of this, to shuck off the burden.
But I can't
And it really hurts to know I am simply not strong enough
Or that someone will slap me in the face and tell me to "get over it". But I know the only result would be pain and a bright red slap mark.
And this leads to the second great Truth: There is still a stigma associated with mental illness. Even among sufferers. Because it is our brain that is the source, we are seen as weak, as lacking gumption, lacking drive (Does the phrase "just get over it" sound familiar? How about "What have you got to depressed about?")
Imagine this was a board for people who suffered from something called Lazy Leg Syndrome. This (fictional) syndrome causes your legs to not work quite right, with effects from occasionally rendering walking difficult or, at worst, renders you unable to walk. Would people say "well, if you just went got out and went for more walks" or "if you really wanted to walk, you could"
If you took medication to resolve this and it caused you to stumble from time to time, there would be sympathy. Or, if the worst symptoms hit you and you were in a wheelchair, everyone would defer to you, offer to help you and far more assistance programs to assist you in getting by
I know most won't read this (TL;DR) but maybe, just maybe, someone will and will come to realize that while the feelings are real, the cause is not
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