Hi Lonely

There is no reason to feel guilty because you have meds that work. The identification of those that work for any individual is very often a matter of trial and error.
As I do have dysthymia I can personally vouch for the accuracy of what you said about this chronicity and having major episodes from time to time. However, I rely now on therapy tools to manage the condition without medication. It is working okay so far. Take care. God bless and best wishes from your friend Francis