hi Sure

I am sorry you have this problem of hypochondria. And that it cost you so much money. The only solution I can think of is mentioning the symptoms you think you have in the future to the family doctor and if he thinks you have no illness. Then, letting it go.
That you have projects you are very interested in is a great blessing as it gives you a reason to go on and to distract your mind from symptoms

It is a fact that sometimes we feel outsiders, mainly because having experienced depression makes us different from those that haven't. But at the end of the day. We have the same feelings. Concerns and opinions as others. Which does make us part of the human race. And so you belong here just as much as anyone else.
The truth is that we are just a different species from the animals. Neither higher nor lower. And because the animals cannot communicate with us verbally we don't know what goes on in their minds.

It is better to care about people and to try to help them because that allows us to make a difference and gives a purpose to life. The pursuit of money and material concerns to me anyway is just empty and pointless.

I do honestly believe if you have a purpose in life, such as a charitable cause, or reconnection with something that fired you up in earlier times, it makes life meaningful and satisfying. Take care. I hope and pray everything does get better for you. God bless and best wishes from your friend Francis