What I suggest, dear, as someone who deeply understands what you're going through, is to take extra good care of yourself this week- indulge in your favorite and most comforting things, and let your therapist know that you feel uncomfortable and scared about this work and really need her help to deal with it slowly and gently.

It sounds like you are really frightened of insulting her also of putting yourself out there so far on a sensitive topic. I hope you can hold onto the fact a little bit that it is precisely her job not to be offended, not to take anything personally, and not to judge you.

(AnaWhitney)

I think it will get better. Starting these talks is often the very hardest part in my experience.