hi Fosterthehuman

The truth is that everyone is equally worthy. People find they are good at most things and not so good at a few. That people have treated too badly and tried to make you feel inferior does not reflect on you, but on their bad behavior.
I'm sorry you lost your job at the theme park. That other people were also quiet and not fired is not fair. But there is nothing that can be done about that. Don't let it make you feel unworthy.
It is obvious from your emails that you are highly intelligent and can express yourself very well. It could be that a job which allowed you to work pretty much on your own will work out better for you.
Don't let your experience with relationships make you feel bad either. What has happened is that you have been unfortunate enough not to come in contact with a really caring person, which is the only type that is, any use in any case.
I honestly feel that fellow sufferers make the best friends. Which is why I would suggest to you to get in contact with Nami the organization for the mentally ill that you can Google, and they run peer to peer support groups in most states. That would give you the opportunity to make good friends. A mental health drop-in center, if there is one in your area will serve also.
I know what it is like when things don't work out. It is very discouraging. However, it always is better to keep on going and persevere to make things better. And I really hope and pray that does happen for you. Have a really great day. God bless and best wishes from your friend Francis