My Support Forums - View Single Post - The BPD Check-In Thread #6

Achy Turtle Armor · Sep 10, 2015, 11:22 PM

I didn't know that it was suicide prevention day...

*
*
*
SU/SI

Possible trigger:

which is kinda messed up since I was making a half-assed attempt today after I cut myself. I sat in my car for 2+ hours with the car off and then I got a text from a friend saying I didn't look right when I left work today. I told her about my cuts and then she asked if I was safe. I paused for along time. I didn't want to lie but I didn't want to tell her what I was doing either so I said yes and begrudgingly got out of the car.

I think I need to call my T if I am feeling like this tomorrow. I really don't want to go IP. It's not that it is a bad place or experience but it makes me feel like I am a failure more than I already do. I also don't want the attention that it brings from people, especially those who haven't spoken to me since my last IP.