Thanks. I do too. I'm very close to just throwing in the towel and trying clozaril but if I do that I'm really committing myself because I'd be going off Seroquel which is the only thing that seems to be keeping me stabilized at all.

My next session on the 21st is just going to be everything on the table time. I can't do this much longer; it's been 9 months and that's just too long. I've been sicker but this is working on being one of my longest episodes ever and with so few treatment options it's overwhelming. I'd rather just go for something effective now than to keep trying things, especially things that could cause the same problems I just had. It's so hard when a med works and you can't take it and that's part of this depression; I feel hopeless about meds because loxapine did help but it also had side effects that weren't safe to continue.

I don't know, hopefully she pulls another rabbit out of her hat but I know there aren't many left in there.