I do tend to feel addicted to the euphoria of my mania, but the thing is that , for me, it never stays that way. It very quickly unravels to an unpleasant state of dysphoria. I posted earlier about how my current mania has morphed into the irritation, agitation, rage, insomnia, anxiety, racing thoughts, etc. This part of it is always a living hell for me! If I don't get stabilized asap I know my pattern is to become out of my head, out of control & it has landed me in the hospital before. SO I'm concerned and trying to be proactive about it.

I know the euphoria can really seduce you but you may want to re think trying to induce mania. It isn't always as pleasant as it first seems (in my experience) and it IS like an addiction. It's also unhealthy like one, so please be careful. I also feel super creative when I'm in that euphoric phase, but what I tend to forget is that my racing thoughts also kill my chances at getting anything, including my writing, done. The truth is that everything I've ever completed with my writing and other creative endeavors I've only been able to finish when I was stabilized. So the reality is that mania actually DOESN"T make me more creative. I just feel that way. It's an illusion really. Although I completely understand wanting to feel that happy and alive all the time. The lows are so low I feel like it'll never end so when I'm high on my dopamine, I want it to last forever.

I wish you luck. Tempting fate never works out for me though.