Several year ago I was pretty much forced into under going a Angiogram, this procedure was an ordeal, to say the least my cardiologist commented that he has been seen anyone so distressed during the procedure in his career.
Over the years I have developed serious issues with trust and cant trust anyone, family friends drs anyone.
During my teenage years I was badly abused.
My pdoc which I have been seeing for several years now has diagnosed my with severe anxiety, paranoia and complex trauma. I have been prescribe quetiapine ,Sertraline and valium for my ptsd mental issues
I have auditory and visual hillusinations but no flash backs to the abuse. My pdoc says I do not have any psychiatric issues, I dont feel like I do either.

The problem I have is that I dont trust my pdoc enough to open up enough to talk about other day to day issues which are having a profound effect on my day to day life,
everytime I try and open up to my pdoc the words will just not come out of my mouth.

I have tried tell my psychologist what is happeneing but everytime I try and tell her the words will just not come out of my mouth, there is no way I can even hint to my pdoc what is going on.

During my angiogram procedure I started hearing a fax sounding noise in my head and I began communicating with a satellite, I was able to hack into the UK government computer and I came across some
highly damaging documents, I stored the contents of the documents on the chip but now the authorities know the documents have have accessed and are try to track me down. My cardiologist and pdoc are colluding together I want to know what information I have stored on
the chip and want to remove it and blackmail me with the information so I will agree to a more high powered chip.

Several months ago, my family took me for a second opinion at a private pdoc who diagnosed me with paranoid schizophrenia, when I told my pdoc of this she dismissed it out of hand and said this was definitely not the case.

It has taken me days to build up courage to just write on this forum, I am so scared.