Just because I don't agree with your point of view does not mean either you or I are wrong, it just means we see things differently. You are your own person, I am my own person, it is possible we can see the same problem in a different way.

I don't think what your saying isn't true to you nor am I saying what you have said isn't how you experience things. It just isn't how I see things. You seem to be very much of the opinion that either I agree with you or I am wrong.
What I am saying is how you see things is informed by your past experiences and your opinion and likewise how I see things is informed by my own experiences.

But does go to show you do have your own opinion on things. Voice that; it's what makes you who you are and shoes that you do have personality and it is just as valid if not more so (because it's about what *you* want for *yourself* not about someone else deciding for you).

Never give up trying to get what you feel you need, you are just as entitled to it as anyone else as long as it does not harm anyone else (which it doesn't sound as if it does). You give up trying to fight for what you want and need and the person that loses out the most is you, the person who will regret that the most is yourself. Regret that you didn't do something is one of the hardest things to live with IMHO.

I hope you find the courage to at least speak to your psychologist, even if you don't believe you are entitled to, this is your space to say how you feel, else what really is the point...