Unfortunately/fortunately, I know what you mean. If you look around, and nothing seems to fit, you won't be the only person who feels that way, but it can seem like you are. The world needs innovators, we can't all be drones, so I encourage you, first, to be true to yourself.

Second, or maybe this should be first, be good to yourself. That means, not only being true to who you are, but make your personal health a priority. By doing this, you will avoid many of the pitfalls that appear in your path when you dare to be different. One of them is addictions. When we can't find comfort within our society, it's natural to isolate ourselves and look for an escape. When you choose your escape, make it one that supports a positive life experience for yourself. Avoid negative and unhealthy distractions.

You are going to need a lot of personal inner strength and determination. You are going against the grain and against the current of 'normalcy' when you innovate. People will attempt to tell you you're wrong, your determination will make them uncomfortable, your successes will be signals to others that they are doing something wrong and they will try to hold you back and force you to behave in the same ways they do. Stay true to what you feel passionately is right for you and keep good health as part of your target. Maybe you won't ever reach your material goals but, you'll live longer even if you don't.

One thing that's occurred to me lately is how so many people are searching for happiness. They seem to think there is a place in their life they will eventually reach where it's all smiles and no pain and they think if they smile a lot, that means they have reached the highest point of happiness. For me, I've given up searching for that kind of happiness. Life isn't, and probably never will be, all happiness. People die and that's a sadness that won't change until we learn how to live forever. Instead of reaching for happiness, I now reach for love. Love lets me smile, when smiling is good, and it lets me cry when I need to.

Could you try getting some work at the craft beer factory near you? Learn more of what it's about? Learn the skills and methods, then innovate and adapt them to your own recipe? Just some thoughts.