Everytime I read a post you write about new T I smile for you. I am happy it sounds like new T really knows what she is doing. Transference feels awful at times but also know there is nothing wrong with you for developing it and I hope old T's reaction to it hasn't added shame to the pile of feelings you have. Working on it may be very healing.

You tried it with old T for a year and it didn't work, maybe this new style can do something for you?