I hope that you will be compassionate with yourself. What you have written sounds completely normal to me. A lot of relationship success depends on timing.

Most every young (& even older) single person that I know laments the conflicting messages that their brain gives off. One part is clamoring "Sex, sex, sex!" Another part is saying "Love, love, love!" and yet another part is often saying "This person is probably best kept as a friend, friend, friend!"

The competing messages inside our head and body can start to become overwhelmingly confusing.

Counseling/therapy can pretty much always be helpful at helping to clarify what we want from life.

Hugs.