I think I should contact you somehow today but I don't want to... Which is really a bad sign in itself. I never know what to say, especially when I don't want to go IP. "I don't want to go to the hospital but I thought I should call since I told you I would and I'm thinking clearly at the moment."

I guess that would do but I don't think that you'd let me hang up without agreeing to go to the hospital. So I either need to agree to not do something stupid or check in to the hospital. I think I will wait to see if I start gathering supplies. ****! It's like I'm fighting a battle in my head here. The sane me vs the insane me. I'm scared because it's almost the weekend. I will attempt to make a plan with someone today. That would be smart... Though I'd rather be left alone and sleep the weekend away.