They asked me to shave my beard, then I complied.

I couldn't stop ruining how I look, so proceeded to shave the side of my head completely, no amount of extra work won't change how hideous I look now, I'm thinking about the ways to do more damage to my face... I won't probably do anything stupid but I know I have to fight against myself a lot, I just know that this is a huge misstep, now I'll go play with my razor.