Eh, how do I put this...
The past couple of years has been especially rough on me. Before that, I was just taking Effexor for my depression and anxiey and I was stable enough to go to work every day. For the past two years, though, I have had to take intermittent leave and there were a couple of times that I had to take short term because my depression and anxiety were so bad. I was dx'd bipolar by my pdoc last May. I had a hard time, and I guess still, wrapping my head around it because I didn't recognize some of the symptoms of mania. Anyway, he put me on a mood stabilizer which helps me with the extreme irritability, and a couple of other meds. I am also taking Adderall for ADD.
Here is what is annoying me at the moment. Whenever I try to talk to my bf about what I am going through, he minimizes it. He knows that I take meds and that I go to therapy, and recently I started to go to a support group, which is helping me immensely. Anyway, sometimes he says that he wants to go to the group with me, not as friends/family for support, but because he thinks that he has depression or bipolar, too. I am not a doctor, so I am not going to try to diagnose him, but he has never been to a therapist, never been on meds, and never had something to the degree where it's disrupted his ability to work or do other things.
Maybe he really has something, maybe he doesn't, but in a way I feel like he is kind of making a mockery of the disorders. I don't think he truly understands because he gets on me for having to take time off of work (he understands nothing about family medical leave, and I've talked to him about it til I am blue in the face) and taking my medications. He's also said some of the worst things that you can possibly say to someone with depression, such as telling me to snap out of it and that he's got more stress than I do. At first, I wanted him to go to the support group with me, but I don't know. I think that I would rather go alone because I truly think that he doesn't get it.
Feedback, anyone?
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