The nurse called back today and I told her what had happened, I even got up the nerve to tell her I SI'd and was having those dark thoughts. She said she would tell my pdoc and she asked me if I wanted to go back to a T, definitely yes!!! They are going to put in a referral. So waiting to hear back with what the pdoc wants to do. She did mention I should think about going to the hospital, but I told her that is not an option, I HAVE to care for my son.