Can I ask you what made you consider a BPD diagnosis and what made you dismiss it?

Years ago I was in treatment and I suggested to my therapist that I could have a personality disorder. It was our third encounter and he said something like "I highly doubt that". I understand he wasn't going to diagnose me, a teenager back then, with a life-long PD after my third session, but even then I could easily see myself as an avoidant or a BPD.

Right now I think I fall out of a BPD, though I'm not completely sure. I'm starting to suspect my mother has BPD and seeing her traits in me is scary. As for the AvPD, I'm pretty sure I have it. 98% of what I read about AvPD is simply... me!