I don't take any meds now but not for the same reason so I'm not sure how relevant my reply will be.

If I'm being totally honest I quit meds for one reason only: ED. However, I find now I fare equally well if not better on nothing than on anything I ever took (except for one that was just waaaay to much fun to be theraputic, ifg you know what I mean).

My goal now is to learn more about how all my symptoms work together and treat my mind as a whole rather than addressing one symptom at a time, preferably via CBT or some other treatment not based in a pill. There are always unexpected synergies among meds for me so I dread taking more than one at a time but only taking one doesn't address the myriad symptoms I experience.

Sorry for the long post, I just want to be clear I don't think going med free is for everyone but there is lots of evidence to suggest that therapy is more effective than medication and both are more effective than either one by itself.

I love being hypomanic right up until I start getting that "potential head explosion" feeling from the pressure of all the racing thoughts and directionless energy. I can't control onset the way you can or I might do the same. The thing you need to remember, imo, is that the reason you need treatment at all is because these symptoms affect your ability to have a normally functioning daily life. If you mess with your meds, you can negatively impact this goal.