Better not mention it bc you would laugh at me.
I'm quite influenced by others. And when someone points something to me about something that I'm not doing well...I look at myself to see if I can fix it.
So, there I went to my therapist and my psychiatrist with the DSM for borderline personality disorder.
Both denied it. I told my psychiatrist that it's not that I was scared of being whátever that my only intention was to get the right therapy and work on my issues.
He said that I didn't have to diagnosed myself. And asked me to let this on his part.
All I know for now is that I have avoidant tendencies ( my main characteric) and dependency issues ( this is new for me but it makes sense now if I look at my past). I'm still working with my psychiatrist so I don't have an official diagnosis other than the one I had some years ago. AvPD.

But, I don't deny what I wrote in this thread's first post. I read a lot about borderline disorder and I have three Borderline online friends. It's not easy to diagnose borderline PD. For the different reasons that I guess you know.