The future looks bleak-
I' ve sabataged yself.
Even if things go well,
I don't know about having to do all the mundane things you have to do as you get older-
I don't want a car, I don't want to add to the pollution-
which is only getting worse-
I'm slowly dying from the pollution and acidic water on a daily basis-
Having kids just adds to the excess and overpopulation- and if I were to have them I don't know if I'd always be a very fit parent- though I've been told I'd be a good parent
I just don't like the idea of all the things tht comes with life.Not anymore.
registering your car, having to find a job to make moneyjust to survive,
feeling empty with no friends or family close by,
feeling useless and stupid,
too many wasted years.
feeling more and more inadequate socially
(though I was just feeling do energetic and social in more recent days)
Maybe I just need a good nap-
I havent't slept much the past few days and I'm super tired
and got some bad news ( http://forums.psychcentral.com/addic...tal-loser.html) this morning that doesn't help things.
I've felt like this though before(even when I'm in a good mood),
like I've surpassed my life expiration date and there's nothing left for me
Like I keep missing all my good chances out of sheer stupidity . .
Life is stupid, and people suck.
I suck.
Maybe I'll feel better later, IDK
Sorry if this triggered anyone . .