i've done it before. When I was first dx'ed a couple of years ago, I had experienced an amazing manic high. I wanted that back. I ****ed with my meds by only taking the antidepressant instead of the mood stabilizer as well, or going off the antipsychotic, or quitting everything altogether. Every time it ended with me being hospitalized. It was the last time I did it, April 2014, that made me stop. I ended up psychotic and paranoid that people could read my thoughts and were trying to kill me. It was terrifying. Since then I've never done anything to mess things up again, even though lord knows I've wanted to. The hypomania is great, but when it goes into mania for me, it's a wrap. And unfortunately we are unable to control whether it stays a happy hypo or goes into a nasty mania. And even if you don't get full blown manic episodes, hypo episodes can turn irritable and ragey. I just can't take that chance anymore. It's like a drug addict who has quit for their family; it's not worth the possible consequence. I can't do that to my son.
I would advise against messing up your meds on purpose.
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