Hi Angstylady

I have felt that way. Also from time to time. But then, having a strong religious belief has always meant that I will always with God's help go on. If you decided not to. It would totally destroy the lives of your loved ones and you really don't want to do that.

Perhaps having the medication looked at would help. Are you in therapy? That can give you really good skills for managing depression and anxiety. It is a matter of programming ourselves to use them in response to symptoms.

There is Nami the organization for the mentally ill you can Google them. Contacting them would reveal whether they want their peer to peer support groups in your area. It would also provide the opportunity to make new friends. There may be mental health drop-in centers where you live. Also.
I do think we all need a consuming purpose to go on. That could be a charitable cause that attracts or reconnection with something that fired you up in earlier times. That would allow you to make life more meaningful and satisfying, and you would be making a difference.. Certainly keeping the mind occupied. doing especially enjoyable things distracts from feeling bad. Setting small easily achievable goals builds confidence that things are coming under control. I hope and pray everything gets much better for you soon. God bless and best wishes from your friend Francis