It is nice to feel emotions outside of Bipolar. It is overwhelming for me to be moved to cry or yell or jump up and down at things that deserve these reactions. I am so much less absorbed in my thoughts and much more task focused than I have been in some time. I had no idea how much I'd been missing and I'm still not sure what drug was causing what. I am still an airhead though, ha! I am an emotional person generally and regulating these emotions as I am experiencing them is proving difficult. I don't wish to complain about that part though as it is sooo worth it.

I am sorry for you to hear me complain about my husband. It makes me sad for you. My husband has a big heart and he is there for me but he is a harsh man in many regards. I love him and our relationship is a lasting one because it is strong and perservering. I am forgiving of him as he is forgiving of me. God knows I'm not perfect. I was also venting, strongly. I obviously can't vent about him to him and I don't like to vent about my husband to my family and friends because I don't want to impact their judgement of him. I don't know why he did this but it makes me furious. I will get over it though and I know that the party will be fine whether or not everything gets done. That however, is not the point. Anyway, thank you for your support. If I could give you a real hug, I would!