Ive been on Zyprexa and then Symbyax for nearly 3 years now for Bipolar Type 2.

-In that time I have put on 65lbs; When I first started taking zyprexa I was underwear modeling and I was an endurance athlete having competed in several Ironman Triathlons. I don't even recognize the same guy I see in the mirror now.

-I have become a recluse. I use to travel and have friends and things to do. Now I sit in my tiny apartment and wonder whats the point.

-I use to have goals and aspirations in life. Now I wake up and go through the motions.

My general existence was numb up until 7 days ago. I went to my pdoc like normal and I discussed my weight gain (the usual subject.) She told me to stick it out 6 more months which I agreed to. I went home and was looking at myself in the mirror and I did not recognize the guy staring back at me. I couldn't do it anymore. I was done taking my medication. I will admit Zyprexa did "Stabilize" me but at what cost? I felt like I was sleeping my life away and I had no idea who I was anymore.

Within 3 days of quitting I could feel the mental cloud starting to lift, I noticed a spring in my step; but Im not manic.

I was feeling alright right up until today; I have been feeling nauseous and throwing up at work all day. I still feel like the cloud is lifting but I have never had the urge to throw up so many times in a 12 hour period.

Believe it or not I can handle throwing up over the feeling of being disconnected.

Does anyone have any experience with Zyprexa withdrawal?