Could do with some help if you have the time
I don’t know why but i always feel a sense of shame around relationships and liking/loving someone, also a real difficulty with physical affection. I can be open about my emotions and such but when it comes to physically expressing that i really struggle and almost feel detatched and really overwhelmingly anxious. Another thing i’ve noticed is an urge to get away from people when i feel attatched or strong emotions about them, i don’t know whether this is a defence mechanism but it’s preventing me from developing real relationships and is the source of a large amount of my anxieties. I do want to express myself in this way but it is almost painful to try. It’s ruined some good relationships in the past that still effect me now.
Any observations or advice on this would be appreciated. Thanks