hi bahistory
i always knew i was ill. i went back to school late in life and it triggered everything there was to trigger. im bipolar and ptsd. my first year into my bsw degree i was escorted out of the medical clinic by the cops to the psych ward against my will. it was quite traumatic. two weeks before graduation, i was in the psych ward again for a week. im a great student, graduated with a 4.0 still. as with you, it was my passion so i stuck with it. finacially, it was so worth it. i love my job. but i wasnt welcome back for the masters program. i knew i wasnt even healthy enough for it. i only applied 1. because i didnt want to disappoint others who encouraged me 2. i wanted to see how they were going to reject me. but i knew i was too sick and i couldnt do that to myself for two more years. i went back for a different masters degree a couple years ago. after one semester, the anxiety was so bad, i questioned why i was doing that to myself. i had so much support and encouragement. but i decided i didnt need to do that to me. it wasnt worth it to to that again. so i dropped out. i have to take care of me. my mental health is more important. i cant live in that constant state of chaos, or putting myself over the edge. it just isnt worth it as much as i love learning. and i have to not care what others think. and everybody else still supported my choice as much as they supported me going to school.

welcome to psych central. you will find we have several forums where you can post about your concerns and receive feedback from other members. you will get a lot of support here. again, welcome