As far back as I can remember I have always been depressed, lonely, and very angry. Never fitting in my family, at school, or work. Always wanted to feel invisible around people or fading into the background where people just did not see me. If they did not see me they could not reject me. Want no one to touch me, went the other way when I felt someone wanted to hug me. It has been so hard to accept that people care that I just turned away from people all my life. I am a 57 year old woman and I feel so alone.