Sometimes saying just one word about the situation can be a relief. It will eventually lead to talking more about it, too. My T tells me that just talking about things can unburden our hearts, which will help pave the way towards healing. I personally am finding this to be true.

TRIGGER WARNING:

I don't know your situation, but I was scared to death to discuss the goings-on of my CSA experiences. I had felt like the dirtiest, nastiest, most unworthy piece of s*** for my entire life (I'm middle-aged!) because of what happened to me as a child. I even beat myself up countless times questioning whether or not I made the whole thing up in my mind or not (I didn't). I mean, did I spend decades thinking this man was a monster when he really wasn't? Anyway, after finally talking about things, these feelings I have towards myself are less intense. Much less intense. I believe they will one day go away altogether.

I encourage you to try to talk to your T about whatever happened to you. Even if it starts with one word. What about writing that one word down on a piece of paper for your T? To live life full of shame, feeling dirty, nasty and worthless is no way to live. I hope you can do it too. But do it at your own pace when you are ready.