Dissociation is really not at all unusual in working through these kinds of issues in therapy. I suspect I dissociated in almost every session for a long time. But by not avoiding and running from those issues, over time I started finding myself dissociating less frequently and being able to directly address those subjects while actually staying fully present. It's a slow and difficult process, but avoiding it altogether really will just leave you right where you are.

As far as feeling feeling judged, again, I think that is a fear for most of us working through these kinds of issues, but again, by going ahead and addressing them and discovering that, sure enough, I wasn't being judged negatively at all, healing became possible.