Hi, everyone. I haven't been on here very much lately. I'm feeling a little weepy right now, and having a lot of mixed emotions about different things. As many of you know, I have been battling with trying to get on disability for quite some time now. I've gone through all the processes and appeals, and such, and even a court hearing--which was about two years ago. After about three or four months, I received a "notice of unfavorable decision," and my lawyer appealed that. Then, after 13 months, we get a notice saying that the main people weren't even going to take a look at my case because they "saw no reason to."So my lawyer appealed that on the federal level, and we're still waiting on that. My lawyer told me that they were told that a final decision is scheduled to be made in or around November. If they say no, that'll be it. If I still want it after that, I'll basically have to apply all over again.

I am having mixed emotions about whether I even want it anymore at this point. I'm still going to wait out the final decision, but......

I have been taking some online classes and my confidence has been built up a little. But I'm still limited on what I can do physically--and I'm getting older. I've recently found out that my back is in a lot worse shape than what I had originally thought. But still.......

Anyway, thanks for letting me rant everyone! I really miss posting on here.