Omg, it just dawned on me....I'm a preprogrammed people pleaser!

Looking back in the past, I remember telling people (esp. Partners) in our life "you make me who I am", also "my actions are just reactions to your actions"...huh?

I was telling the truth even if it didn't make any sense....it's just what it felt like. I felt preprogrammed for every facet of life....button A was pushed... I did this, button B was pushed...I did that...

Everyone didn't understand (I didn't either) and said that I wasn't taking any responsibility for my actions....I didn't get it.

I feel like a giant control panel with a many buttons on it. Push a button, switch to accomplish the task as required.

I didn't people please on purpose, I was just made too. I fight it, but I still do today....not as much though....but on the spot moments I automatically carry out my programming, afterwards it's like "I can't believe I just did that!"

Can you see it in yourselves? Is it like this for you?

All this "just made sense" to me, like a light just went on in why I did what I do....revelations.

I'm just happy to see it....now I know what I'm always fighting.