I know what it is. I'm feeling that "I'm done" feeling again. I'm pretty sure when I look closely at the feeling, it relates directly to the dream about the doors on the ship that I can't open... and the doors that I drew (that are closed)... and how we talked about what is on the other side of the door, is it ME at last? And I'm feeling the "I'm done" again because I am afraid of opening the door and seeing? I'm afraid that what I'll see is what I've been afraid of this whole time. Let's talk about this Thursday okay?

ETA: Look at me letting myself feel my way through the feeling, besides....