sleep , the darkness, scary and comforting at the same time .... no one can see you , the real you, in the dark ... but sleep is so hard ... afraid to go to sleep , .... when will I wake up .... hooked to a cpap ... like a respirator ... like being a living machine ... being less than human .... lonely ... afraid ...a wasted life .... not brave enough to keep my eyes shut ... going on out of fear of the unknown ... sameness gives comfort ... the living dead .......