Nikki I can sooooooo understand your feelings for your therapist as I seem to struggle with similar feelings myself. I would not say that I am in love with my therapist but I do love him a great deal and struggle with wanting him "in my life" in more ways than therapy allows. He is so great and I just can't imagine my life without him! Sometimes these feelings are good and sometimes thay make me crazy because I know he can't "be in my life" like I want him to. I ache for him sometimes...not in a sexual sense, but in a person to person sense. He is everything I would seek in a friend and I want him to be my friend so badly but know that he is not and never will be. The thoughts of one day loosing him makes me so sad that I don't know how I will ever deal with termination issues when the time comes. I too have mixed feelings about this love! On the one hand it feels great to love someone like this but on the other it hurts so bad sometimes that I wonder if it was ever worth it to start with. But I have come to accept these conflicting feelings and try to remember that he will always be a part of me long after out relationship is overwith. Not easy to do, but I try to keep things in perspective.