Morning all!

Today is the first Sunday without my parents in a long time... I've decided to try and replicate the 'Sunday Roast' as best I can though. Got some chicken thighs & drumsticks & will do some sautéed potatoes instead of roast potatoes. Should be a good alternative.

I'm having trouble at the moment in that I can't get the fear of relapse out of my head. Even though I know in all likelihood it is just drug-induced psychosis & I therefore can't relapse there is still a nagging part of me that says I have some underlying condition & will. I think the thing that is fuelling this is a certain over-acuteness of my awareness... I'm always looking out for & noticing things although there isn't as of yet any paranoia or delusions associated with it. It's almost as if I'm expecting to see something out of place. I'm not sure whether this is related to anxiety or merely the remnants of my paranoia.

I'm doing my best to just try getting on with life & not worry but it's hard. I think the fact I hear voices most the time now unless I am distracted doesn't help. It's almost like a constant reminder of my problems even if I can largely ignore the content of them. Hopefully given time my concerns will just dissipate but sooner would be better than later...