Ifhi Bjarred

telling all of this to a psychiatrist is deeply personal stuff and a lot of people find it very difficult to talk about it. So perhaps if you were to write it all out on the computer print it out and then hand it to him that would be a way around it. Hopefully, increasing the dosage will give you the help you need. But a lot of medications to take a couple of weeks to work in.

However, the vast majority of psychiatrists only do diagnosing and medicating and monitoring and do not do therapy so you would not get skills from them to manage symptoms. CBT has been adapted for all known conditions and you could Google a CBT therapist for your area. Then there is mindfulness and the therapy. I use which is acceptance and commitment therapy.
With regard to self-esteem. We really good at most things are not so good at a few which simply makes you just as good as anyone else on the planet.
I understand about socializing. So perhaps you would like to consider googling Nami the American Association for the mentally ill and you could phone them and find out what services they provide in your area. Very often they run depression support groups and peer to peer support groups providing you with the opportunity also to make new friends. Fellow sufferers. I believe make the best friends and socializing with them is easier.
I used to have a lot of social anxiety, but found that as I got more of a grip on this socializing became easier.

Keeping the mind busy doing things takes the focus away from feeling bad. And setting small goals that are easy to achieve builds confidence that things are coming under control. I hope and pray everything does get better for you soon. Take care. God bless and best wishes from your friend Francis