Yesterday I had a very tough session and I did my usual of avoiding talking about what I really needed talking about...
I almost lost my T yesterday but she is still willing to work with me even after she got that really nasty email from my other part...She read the email to me and I broke down crying and before I knew it I started telling her things that I had avoided in the past...To say it, to feel the emotions behind it was excruciating but ya know what?...Today is the first day in a couple of months I haven't been depressed...
I am being my old silly goofy self and it feels GOOD!...

So was it worth going through what I went through yesterday...yep it was...I was thinking this morning, the longer I put off talking about the hard stuff the longer the pain is drawn out, but if I share it and talk about it than that pain lessens.....

I have 2 sessions next week and than I'm on vacation for a month, I'm afraid my T is going to feel the relief of me being gone and will decide not to work with me when I come back...but I have to trust her when she says she wants to work with me.................FP