so t i did an Active last night with the drawing i did of the door. It was short, but I got some good stuff. In the Active I did open the door - and beyond it was dark, like a deep, starless and moonless night - and I heard a voice from somewhere inside me say "Let what you have already learned about who you are be a light shining into the darkness of what you don't know yet, to show you your way." I think this means I should trust what I've learned, trust who I am now, to lead me to what I am yet to be. Or something like that.