i learned a long time ago that i cant depend on anybody else to care about me. would i like it? hell yeah? do i crave it? desperately. but i only get more depressed thinking that way. i learned nobody was going to care for me until i started caring about myself. i had to do things that made me feel good because i couldnt depend on other people making me feel good. it was that simple. i could sit around being miserable waiting for others, or i could do things myself that made me feel good. so i do things for myself. take care.