Hi Moonkin. That is a lot going on in your life. I am unsure what to reply to…well, first off, I am sorry you are going through all this—it must be really difficult. I understand about depression and problems with meds. It took me a long time to get the meds right. Maybe you should see your PD. Overdosing on your meds is not the answer—sounds like you know that. I wish I could help you more. Know that you are not alone.